those impressions I mentioned earlier.

So today was to be the first day of classes and my first day at my practicum site. One of those two things occurred....which happens to be the latter. So, I rode to practicum with Katie today...actually I drove. All was pretty alright. It was a good ride. I, being awkward with small talk, managed to do pretty well the hour ride there and back home. At GSC however, it was just not right. I don't get wonderful or even good vibes from my boss. She makes me feel very much on edge, and borderline nervous at times when she's around. She behaves in a most ingenuine manner and things are just too contrived for my taste. She seemed very unprepared for my arrival...and we honestly didn't get anywhere. Except that she printed me a calendar with dates or what have you that we'll be meeting and when there'll be staff meetings and other meetings I may want to attend. Staff meeting was this afternoon...A-W-K-W-A-R-D! So serious...I was completely weirded out by the entire process. And from our conversation in the car, I'm sure Katie feels the same way...just like it's abnormal and pretty pointless/purposeless....It's funny...on the way there she said that the boss, Cara, is the most intentionally busy person ever...and her phraseology and word usage was perfect. She is intentionally busy...but not intentional about the activities and not purposeful in the things she does or she has others do. Honestly we don't need to have a staff meeting every week...I think every other week would suffice just fine...but then again...I'm not running the office....

OMGoodness...random I totally see my Restorative comin' out...unfortunately it comes out in my highlighting things that are wrong....and essentially that looks like me being overly negative...si....yes! Dangit! Clearly that's not my intention....that's just how it works out...I'm constantly seeing flaws in things...and that's my #1.....so what does Ebonii need to do?!? Balance...or just re-work how things are coming out. I need to positively point out obvious (to me) flaws/negatives.....that is the key to better interactions with others....and probably overall just a better me.

Restorative:

"...you enjoy bringing things back to life. It is a wonderful feeling to identify the undermining factor(s), eradicate them, and restore something to its true glory. Intuitively, you know that without your intervention, this thing-this machine, this technique, this person, this company-might have ceased to function. You fixed it, resuscitated it, rekindled its vitality. Phrasing it the way you might, you saved it..."

"In all of your relationships, do not be afraid to let others know that you enjoy fixing problems. It comes naturally to you, but many people shy away from problems. You can help....Allow other people to solve their own problems. You might want to rush in and solve things for them, but in so doing you might hinder their learning."  - I wonder if this means, I might create problems too...just to have something to fix?!? Could clear up a lot from previous relationships....or just my "story making" disposition in general.

Anyway, back to work...um....yeah....so today for me was a bit of a bust. Except for the fact that we got to leave early on account of the snow flurries that were a-flurryin'....I found out that my wonderful 9-4 hours on Fridays were no more...cause they close at 3....so I'll be working 8-3, which means I'm up at the crack of dawn because it takes an hour to get there, so I'll need to leave at least by 7...which really means 6:45...which means I'm up at like 5....what in the world?!? That is not fun. I don't wanna get up at nobody's 5 in the morning. Those were old days when I used to do that...like way back in high school. I haven't had to wake up that early in so long. I don't know if I'm gonna be ready for it. AHH. Anyway...that's all for now...I'm supposed to have outcomes for work for tomorrow morning for my 1-on-1...so I should probably go work on something to say there that sounds remotely legit.