...yesterday was kind of foul...it really was...I didn't get going for real for real until like 3:30...which meant consequently that I stayed at work a bit later making up for lost time. Last night I appealed to my pushover nature and I signed up for a service to help a friend...even though I and 100% sure I could've found a better deal elsewhere (namely b/c I found it)...I ache b/c I couldn't find a reasonable way to say...look I know you are struggling with money and this would help you...but yo I'm struggling too and I don't wanna play the trump card...but my money struggles kind of trump yours and helping you would inadvertently disadvantage me...none of that played out well for me...so I caved and we will hope and pray for the best as far as that situation is concerned. But today, this morning...I woke up kind of after I usually do..and I left the house later than I usually do...and yet none of that caused any discomfort. The day came...I had meetings...I received confirmations...I responded to emails I was too disgruntled to respond to yesterday...I've brought some clarity to my life...do I have a ton of stuff to do? HECK YEAH...but I feel really good about it. I made a phone call which is a big deal for me...don't know this lady but I need info like 2 days ago and she's sleepin' on my email...so yeah I was a legit big girl. I get my massage tonight so for that I will be forever grateful. Um...tomorrow I get to wear jeans which I'm pleased by that as well.Today is exactly what I needed to cure yesterday. It's as if it didn't happen and that's just as it should be. I feel really, really...good.
